Inspiration

I’ve been waiting for that moment of inspiration for so long,
Guess it never comes,
There are moments, very short, but they fade away before I even feel them,
Sometimes I feel desperate, lost in a big desert, with no desire to neither survive nor die!
Then I think about the impacts that I still can have, on everything around me,
It’s not strong, but makes me feel alive, makes me want to wait a bit longer,
For that moment,
That moment of inspiration,
So I can create something new,
Something unique,
And then,
Perhaps go back to my desert and then
I can decided whether to survive or die, in peace.